Today I had a call of a close friend.
Anyway there were many things between us. And after an argument there was nearly no communication between us. There were things this person won´t understand, won´t see....but it´s ok.
I can live with it.
But I will never live again 7 years just to hope and pray...to make everything and living with a "maybe"
I cannot live with a maybe.
I didn´t said anything, didn´t wanted a decision coz I thought I would take your freedom.
It was a mistake....and the one who has to live with it is me.
well....after that call....I think...it´s wrong to call you reckless....it seemed a lot like it, coz this person shows me so much emotions, aggressions that I thought it is like that. It was because this person didn´t talked to me.
Now I know why he changed his name, and it´s ok ... i can understand it.
And I also understand why he reacts like that.
Actually...I feel sad about it....
It´s everytime the same....I love to be here. But I am always so happy to see her....but only for one weekend....
Sure when I am here, there are my friends and family.
But sometimes I need someone like her.
Because I´ve lost so many things. But it´s getting better I think.
Anyway I don´t understand some reactions of some people. Also to trust someone is getting harder.
But I try my best.
Anyway...something between me and others is different now. And I am sure, that it´s not only my fault.
We went together with to to the city centre of Leipzig.
It was soooo amazing, there were lights everywhere and everywhere was christmas.
Dai bought two DVD´s "fast & furious Tokyo drift" and uhm...sorry I forget the name of the other one.
In german it is called "Drachen zähmen leicht gemacht!"
We´ve been on the christmas market and have eaten lasagne.
Of course we´ve watched both this evening.